Sometimes I feel like a misbegotten product of natural forces abandoned by nature to fend for myself; I feel hopeless and perplexed in a universe I did not even ask to be in; I did not vote to be created; I was not consulted whether or not I like to exist on planet earth. Am I the universe metamorphosed ? did the universe acquire consciousness through me ? Am I a God ? or I am a bi-product and work of something higher than myself ? Why am I here ? What is this place ? Why does it exist ? why do I exist ? Why is there a providence and improvidence existing side by side on earth ? Why are we happy and why do we suffer ? Scientists tell us that the sun is dieing and at the end of that moment it will be the end of the solar system and our existence; is that all there is to it ? Does the universe even know it created an intelligent being who is cogitating existence staring into space and the stars with his naked eyes and with telescopes petrified in confusion ?

Why don’t we have superhuman powers if we were Gods and the metamorphoses of the universe itself ? or if we are creations of something higher,then why are we suffering ? Whatever, the case may be we can be certain about one issue which is matter and it’s determining nature.That is the only knowledge we can be certain about; the material world makes us and the universe but why ? Why are we created by atoms which are not conscious but determine our mood,thoughts,feelings,respiration,digestion and pretty much everthing that we are ?

Did the universe existed all along and life on earth just happened to be a perfect accident leading to human evolution and all these questions ‘am asking ? If we observe the universe and the solar systems it creates, we don’t see any order or intelligence.Forexample,if we see planet Uranus within our solar system it is a planet which revolves the sun tilted 98 degrees where it’s equator is almost perpendicular to it’s axis; other systems have binary stars where one star revolves around another in a digression from what we consider a ‘normal’ solar system where planets revolve around a star not stars orbiting eachother; On other areas one star (a red giant) is sucked by another star (white dwarf); planets (dare devil planets) which orbit very close to their stars being blow torched by their parent stars who supposedly according to ‘intelligent design’ are supposed to sustain them; extraterrestrial huge hurricanes in gas giants like jupiter and Saturn roam their surfaces making it unthinkable for human habitation; a blue alien planet called HD189733b where molten glass rains ! side ways with a planetary atmosphere temperature of 1000 degree centrigrade ! which makes it unfit to bear life.

After observing all these facts why do we think we are unique and intelligently designed notwithstanding the chaotic nature of the Universe ? we should have reached a conclusion to the opposite where planet earth happened to be a perfect accident.I see a universe in chaos not so much in order and randomly created a heaven planet flourishing with life and a perfect sanctuary for an intelligent being to evolve.

Did the universe gain consciousness without even knowing it ? Honestly,this is what I think has happened rather than a conscious being of some sort purposely designing the Universe itself.This is the deduction I have reached.Because if the Universe was a master piece of something higher than itself it should have been a flawless perfect environment with absolute order; but evidently it is a very harsh place with abhorably designed solar systems and planets with the minor exception of our home planet.

But even our own planet is not a full exception to the chaotic universe it is filled with so much challenges and hostile conditions.The more I think about existence the more I understand my insignificance and dispensible nature in nature.The Universe seems like it is not made for me.It is in chaos, even our galaxy the milky way is going to collide with another galaxy called Andromeda which stands at 2.5 million light years from our galaxy approaching us at the speed of 100 to 140 km per second to collide with the Milky way in the future creating a new galaxy called Milkomeda.Now,where is the providence in this action ? Where is that God who is supposedly looking after our weal ?

Considering this fact it seems like i have adapted to my current position and milieu in the universe next to my parent star,rather than being purposely designed by something higher than myself or the Universe as a token of providence.What a scary notion ??? What a predicament !? If my being here today is an adaptation, then what have I adapted to ? where did the universe come from ? did it invent itself ? If so by what momentum ? did it exist for all eternity ? If so, again by what momentum ? What lies beyond the Universe ? Or is the Universe all there is ?

After considering and contemplating all these questions we might say: Let’s figure out what we can be certain about first and then we will figure out the rest of the other questions.Thus,what we can be certain about is that Universe is definitely blind and chaotic.It does not even know or care that we are here according to how it is behaving.Which explains all the suffering on the planet.It looks like we are the bi-product of this shambolic force.

I believe that Without solving the mystery of metaphysics (reality) there will be no closure for us; without figuring out our origin completely we can never have serenity and completement.

Unfortunately,it seems like we are some sort of accident of a clumsy natural force.It feels depressing to know that we are not the centre of the Universe.We are not under protege.It feels terribly  terrifying to know that we are on our own to fend for ourselves.The Universe seems like it is not a gift presented to us.Therefore, the truth in accordance with observation must always be embraced notwithstanding it’s comfortable or distressing nature.

Our feelings and interests cannot dictate the truth.Just because we are confounded and terrified all of a sudden the Universe cannot be a beneficient force or our confoundment and terror cannot create a Provident God.We must base our metaphysical theories not on our interests but on observation!.Thus, my observation of reality indicates to me that the Universe itself has accidentally gained consciouness while in it’s tumultuous rampage.Which finally lead me to conclude that I am a Cosmic orphan than a fallen angel.

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